"Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us"- Romans 5:3-5 (NIV).
The bottom line is, does your faith stand firm through the battles raging around you? If so, then you are blessed and have stood the test. Your reward: the crown of life, promised by God to those who love Him (James 1:12). To the bitter end, if need be. If your faith endures, you will reign with Christ, but if you weary and flee the battle, denying Christ, He will deny you (2 Timothy 2:12). Don't try to understand what God is doing or why He's doing it; He is God! Trust Him with all of your heart (Proverbs 3:5). Those who persevere to the end will be saved (Matthew 24:13). Glory in your suffering; Joy is coming!